As I was driving back from shopping today, I found myself thinking about justice. In life I mean. I thought on all of those people I have met in my life who were users and abusers. Yet, they always seemed to rise to the top like cream that upon tasting it is off. I know we all know someone like that.
I am a giver by nature. I mostly put myself last in life and spend time ensuring others are getting what they need. I have discovered though that this giving mentality is wrong. All I seem to do is create dependency – on me. In the last few years, I have tried not to be so giving or rather – to move me up the list a bit. You see, I realised that it’s my life and my responsibility is to myself as much as it is to others. Those that do rely on me wouldn’t be able to if I had no ability to help them.
So, these days, I do try to push back a bit. Rather than give on a plate, I try to get them to do something for themselves. Sometimes, the reaction is revealing…. they call me selfish! LOL.
I have always found this a dilemma. Where does selfish start and finish? Like I said, if I wasn’t able to help, how could I help? In order to be able to help, I must actually be able to work, make money, and have some spare time and cash to help.
I’m waffling a bit I know because I still don’t really know the answer – probably still trying to formulate the question is fact – Is there justice? Do the users and abusers suffer eventually or are they enjoying a free ride with no consequences through life at our expense?